Its D-Day Ya'll!

War Eagle.

I like to think I'm optimistic. Most days, I know I'm more pessimisitc than most...Just really dont wanna get my hopes up just to get them dashed.

But today, I'm an optimist. I hear Alabama is gonna get caught looking ahead to Florida..And I also hear Tubby doesn't want to disappoint lonely Auburn fans in Texas who are buried underneath Con Law outlines. :)

Lucky Jersey---check
Optimism--sorda check

My War Eagle swagger might not be up to par these days....but I'm hoping for 7 in a row.

Take that Saban.

Oh. Husband is downstairs. I'm upstairs in Auburn Country.

And CBS is stupid. I CANNOT STAND THESE ANNOUNCERS.





WHOA IS ME. The smell of defeat is pungent. I will say Bama could have been a little bit more classy..that last touchdown was pretty asshole-ey. Whatever. We lost. I'm pissed. Now its time to look toward next year. And hopefully a better coaching team. Whether that includes Tubbs or not, I dont know. We will see though.

In the end. I'm still an Auburn fan.

But.....Go Gators. Get 'um next weekend Tebow. I'd like to see Florida take it to Alabama. I'd be ok with today if that could happen. Did you hear that football gods??

Happy Turkey Day!

Happy Thanksgivin' Ya'll!

In the spirit of the holiday...here are just a few things I'm thankful for:

• my health: if you know me, and my family history...this is a good thing!
• my husband: even when we're arguing, I still can't deny I love him
• my kiddo: he's awesome. best thing that ever happened to me hands down.
• my dog: she's terrible. but the best dog EVER
• my education: I might complain now, but I certainly wont once I'm getting paid to bust my a*&
• my family: I love them,...I miss them today..and pretty much every day..I can't wait till Christmas when I get to see them again.
  
• my mom in particular: this green bean casserole is going to rock. and its all because of you :)
  
• my new family: they have accepted me with open arms..and I can't ever thank them enough for that. from day one, they have treated me like one of their own, and I really needed that then, and I cherish it now
• my homemade family: from Uncle Kaleb to K...I cant imagine how I would have gotten through these past few years without you guys...it certainly wouldnt be as much fun!
• K: you already got an honorable mention, but you definitely deserve you're own bullet point. I'm so thankful to have you as my best friend. I dont even want to know what my life would be like right now if I didn't have you around. seriously.
• my law school family: I love you guys! Matt, Carla, E...you're the best lunch bunch ever!
• last but not least...my blog: thanks for being there when I needed to vent, or when I needed to tell someone how much they mean to me. Thanks Blogger world... :)

Happy Thanksgiving Ya'll---from all of mine to all of yours.

8 Long Years in the Making

I went to church for the first time in 8 years today. I'm guesstimating around 8 years because Hayden is 7 and I was preggers for 9 months, so give or take 8 years. Jacob has been sick the last few days so he and Hayden stayed home. I went to the Fellowship Church out here in Fort Worth. It was good. Different than what I was used to. The last church I went to was the First Presbyterian Church of Dallas, down by the Farmers Market. I loved the pastor, he was awesome. But I got pregnant with Hayden, and life happend. I'm not making excuses, but I did have my reasons. You would have to know me to understand, explaining them here wont make a lot of sense. But suffice it to say that I was bitter. And, let's be really honest with ourselves. I was 16 when I got pregnant. Show me one girl who gets pregnant at 16, who has everything going for her, who is happy about it. I was an honor roll kid, super involved in soccer, and had a million friends. I was seriously the LAST person you would ever expect to get into that kind of trouble. I think that is enough to make a girl bitter. I didn't think I needed church.

But now I'm older, and I have a little bit more sense (not much mind you lol). And I just kind felt like something was missing. I thought about it...and figured that maybe it was God. I've putzed around here, the blogger world..and a lot of ladies around here seem to have a strong sense of faith and I thought maybe that was what I was missing. So I'm giving it a try.

Wish me luck on our journey to find a good fit for us. The whole family is going next week. Fellowship Church has a great kids ministry program that I think Hayden would really enjoy, and I think Jacob will like it too. So we'll see if the search ends there or if we're in for another round of church shopping...is that the right thing? Church Shopping?? hmm..doesn't sound right, but hey...I kinda like it!

OH and If you're looking for my fit friday post, you wont find it. Sorry. With nothing but a couple runs to report..there isnt much to say.

Hope everyone had a wonderful weekend! Yay for Turkey Day!

Happy Almost Holidays

Before I begin my FANTASTIC post. I would like to give a shout out to the Netherlands! WHAT UP GELDERLAND?! leave a comment...tell me about yourself! how'd you stumble across this place? please and thank you ;)

I would like to point out for those who are not aware, it is November 20. Not December 20. Therefore I should not be hearing Christmas Music when I'm in the middle of the mall. C'mon people. I know we're all excited about Christmas. But if I cant put up MY Christmas Tree, neither can you WAL-MART.

If you would like to indulge yourself in Christmas music, that is fine. I, however, will not be indulging until after Thanksgiving, silly me with my traditions. ( I know I decorated my page..leave me alone)

Ok, without further ado; here is my list of things I enjoy about the Christmas/Holiday season:
1. Decorations: I dont do every holiday, but I make a point to decorate for Christmas and a little for Thanksgiving. I really like all my stuff for Christmas so far, but I am really excited about collecting lots of decorations to put out with my kiddo now and future kiddos. My parents always had so many decorations, and I loved putting them out, well helping. :)

2. Holiday Spices: Thanksgiving and Christmas. I love Apple Cider, and I've been enjoying the last few years with Pumpkin Spice flavors. Coffee, bread, scents. I LOVE it!

3. Family: I'm super excited about spending this Christmas with my new family. AND I get to spend a lot of time with my mom. Which makes me super super happy. I don't get to see either of my parents very much, but it has been especially hard having my mom out of town. We get to spend the first 5 days of our vacation at her cute new house. I'm pretttyyy excited! AND I get to see my dad too. I dont know for how long, but I'm looking forward to seeing him and my grand-dad. There are some extenuating circumstances that are going to make that hard, maybe I'll blog about that whole situation, but its not fantastic. Small recap: my gramd-ma is really sick. ANYWAY I'm excited for my Thanksgiving too. Because sometimes even the family you make for yourself is pretty awesome :) and I'm super excited to share one of my fav. holidays with my awesome Texas family!

4. There is so much more I love about this time of year, it could be such a long post. I love the food, the colors, just all of it.

So, what do YOU love about the holiday season?


2 Christmas Pictures
1. A Texas Christmas
2. An AU Christmas (before they quit putting the Christmas tree out...and before they started calling it a "Holiday Tree"..stupid...what? so can we put it out on all the holidays? Memorial day here I come with my big ass decorated tree!)

Little Secrets

O.M.G. !!

I was putzing around on the internet, I mean studying the social scene with intentions of doing some sort of super smart study, lol, when I stumbled upon my inner-gay-man. Ok. Now this may come as a surprise to most people, probably even husband was surprised when I brought it up. lol. But I sooooo have an inner gay man living inside me somewhere (and not in a dirty way E/K).

Exhibit A: My love for Cher, Madonna (old, not new, new freaks me out), Celine Dion, Britney, Cristina....diva's in general
Exhibit B: When said diva songs come on, I cannot help myself, I either sing or dance along. I would rock some karaoke...I'm not saying I sing well, but I have heart :)
Exhibit C: When I see videos like the one below, I cannot help but connect with said gay man. I seriously loooove him. This is what I picture he looks like. And if I were a gay man, I would totally have some sweet sweet moves like his.

Alas. Here is my inner-gay man. He is my hero. Thats right, love me some Mariah too...oooh Bette..Bette Midler, gotta love BEACHES! lol. (sorry I can't embed it, it was disabled)

I have a holiday post for you, but I'm going to save it for another day. I need to make a rockin list of why I looooove the holidays so. Well, maybe make a condensed list, it goes on and on in my head :)

have a wonderful time watching the REAL sasha fierce. :)

Ill leave you with one of my fav. silly pics

oh and this one too

Music Monday :)

Thank you Blogspot for posting a completely blank "music monday". Thank you very much.

ANYWHO!

Lest you think all I listen to is pop radio (which lets be honest, it is pretty much a lot of what I listen to, but whatev, I will occasionally stumble upon something fantastic). Just so it is noted, I could do an entire Music Monday on my disdain for Beyonce's new song "If I were a Boy". ICK.

OK so for a really long while now I've been loving this one musician. To be fair 2 musicians. One of them is Gavin Degraw. I don't LOVE his new cd. It just doesnt feel like "Gavin" it kinda feels like the record label go ahold of it and made him do some "radio" tunes. Not very excited about it really. Ok the other musician is Citizen Cope. I heard him one day on One Tree Hill (the best music by the way. seriously. espeically the old episodes). I picked up his CD (yes, pre i-Tunes, I actually have his real CD lol) and it did not come out of my CD player in my car. I loved it. Well I still love it. And while we are on the subject of music found on One Tree Hill, before I forget, did anyone happen to catch the song Hayley sang? It was amazing. I found it on i-Tunes, and I'm tempted to spend the 99cents for 1 song. Its beautiful. I digress.

My song for Music Monday.
My Way Home

Sometimes I miss a step
I stumble here and there
I'm findin' my way home
If I'm lost then I'll admit
Sometimes i plain forget
I'm findin' my way home
You can try and stand in my way
You can say what you're gonna say
But I'm finding my way home

Fitting I'd say. I'm constantly in a back and forth about where to make my 'home'. I have all these different people trying to tell me where I should or shouldnt go (unsolicited advice mind you, when I bring it up, its not big deal). I'm just trying to find my way to a place where I can make a home, a life for my family. I dont want to move Hayden around like my mom moved me and my brother around. I dont fault her for that in any way, but I want Hayden to have a little more stability. We have already moved 4 times in 7 years. One time out to AL and one back to TX included. I just want somewhere that he can make friends and not be worried we'll move away. I think I have found that in Fort Worth, but I just don't know. Around this time of year I get terribly homesick. I miss being in AU, and I miss being near my family and now that means Jacob's family too. I miss doing dinner at his parents house on the weekends, and impromptu dinner parties with his entire family. I swear they make up holidays so they can have an excuse to grill out and have everyone over. It's an awesome thing that I truly wish I could take advantage of more often.

Ok. So that's your music monday. Sorry its a bit long. You get to be my sounding board for "finding my way home". :)

Picture Time

me pregnant with Hayden. Be kind. I'm 16.


AAND baby Hayden.
cutest. kid. ever. :)
can't wait to see what mine and husband's little one will look like. just gotta wait a year and half..then 9 months :)

Not so Fit Friday

My Fit Friday goals have been pretty pathetic these days. I hate that I've fallen off the wagon, but I just haven't been doing so well.

Stress is certainly a factor. I cannot even begin to articulate how stressed out I am about finals, and even the paper that I turned in. There are some people who read this who understand, and I appreciate that. But what only K knows about me is that I am extremely hard on myself. I am pretty much convinced at this point that I'm going to blow my finals. There is just so much to do between now and then, it seems insurmountable.

I understand that the other ladies participating in Fit Friday have their own things going on and experience stress for completely different reasons, and I'm not asking for pity. I haven't run in over a week, we've eaten out SOOO much. The only thing I can say is that not buying any 100 calorie snacks is probaly the only reason why I havent gained everything right back. I refuse to weigh at this point, but I now I havent gained it all back because my pants fit :) So here is to a better week next week! I swear I'm getting back on the wagon after this weekend. I seriously think that running is the only thing that kept me sane before that paper was due. I will test the theory with finals. And get these 8 or so pounds off! I WILL be skinny by Christmas. I WILL! My first Christmas as Mrs. White will be a good one. And I will not spend it worried about my weight.

Thats it for now.

A wedding picture. Thats all I got for ya! This is my husbands tie after it held a very close meeting with the meatballs we served. (I can't blame the tie really, they were ridiculously good)
OK...one more..This is why I love my husband. Because even when I'm taking things seriously he keeps me grounded. I love that about him. He keeps me laughing. He keeps me out of my head. He keeps me "me".
I love you husband :)